Inspired by a Friend

I just read my friend Susan's blog and it occurred to me that even though our situations are different, we are the same! I can so relate to her. I miss you Susan!!! I wish we lived closer and could go to Ulta tomorrow.

I feel there are so many things I would want to say on a blog but fear of being judged. If I talk about Pete, I am not moving forward. If I complain, I am not trying hard enough or am depressed. I am very liberal thinking. My family is me and my pets. I am defintely different. Of course, I am probably my own worst critic :).

I have decided to embrace being different and find my own path. I try to be open and know that my path will be unique. Sometimes I really don't know what I should be doing and I feel alone. Other times, I am so busy and feel that I am on the right track.

I have thought about Pete a lot over the last week because we met ten years ago this week! I read some of the emails he sent me. He was really over the top and hilarious and I really miss him. It occurred to me that one reason I have had such a hard time is I lost him twice. His illness was horrible..I had no idea what he was thinking..it took away the guy who wrote the emails and planned crazy fun dates (hey! Let's go to the library and take a class on fung sui-it's free!!). Then I lost him physically. I couldn't really remember any good times or funny stuff because memories of this illness were so forefront.  It was good to revisit the magical time we met and I hope something like that will happen again.

I hope that I can be bold and blog more. I love reading Susan's blog. She is so open and that makes her even more likeable/relatable.